Category: my ramblings

Went to Toronto yesterday for some shopping. I finally got around to starting on christmas shopping and got some presents for a few of my friends. ANd window-shopped for a new Discman, ’cause mine is almost dead. (Sandy, please find yours so I can borrow it!) Spent money. Spent money I don’t have. Ah well.

Something else is now official: next semester I will be living in the House of Mirth with Sandy, Cait and Amy. I just told my parents last night and they are all good. Not that it was a huge deal – I’m always the one that’s so concerned about telling them things but my concerns are always unfounded.

Anyways, back to Guelph sometime this afternoon.

I would be doing my CIS3530 assignment right now, except it *has to be done on a computer with Oracle 7 on it, and there are like only 10, and they’re all being used until 6:30 when Sonya is leaving and is going to give me one. Yay.

Explodingdog isn’t as weird as it sounds. You send phrases, and he draws pictures. I was just looking at this one.

Went to bed at 9pm last night, got out of bed at 9am this morning. ‘Twas a restless sleep. But this morning I took my prescription and am starting to feel a bit better.

Sandy is not doing much better than I. She was very sick last night, and had a mid-term this morning that she wouldn’t talk to me about after, so I don’t think she did very well. I should get my assignment done for tomorrow so I can comfort her.

Yes, it’s official: I’m sick. I’ve got a sinus infection. Fuckin’ sucks. I wish I was better right now. Dammit. Whenever I’m sick I realize that I, like everyone else in our screwed up North American society, wants the quick fix.

I feel too much like crap to write anything else.

Paper is done. It sucks ass, but it’s done and in on time. But now I think i’m sick with something. My throat hurts a lot. Bah.

Just when I was going to write a semi-rant in here, I throw in a Mix CD and the first track happens to be Window by Guster, my favourite band. It’s great how music can change my mood.

My girlfriend wrote in her online diary yesterday about all the fun she’s having being home for the weekend. sigh. It’s killing me that I can’t talk to her or be with her. I could really use it.

Otherwise, I have 1750 (okay, fine, 1749) words of my essay written. Up until now though it’s just been unpacking the primary source material and spitting it back out again, which I’m afraid I’m not going to get any marks for. Must do analysis.

I think I need to go for a walk.

You’re away for the weekend. I was going to be with you for it.

You’re sitting at a banquet right now. I wish I could be with you.

I’m beating my head ofer my work, because I have no confidence in myself.

I can’t blame you, because it’s not your fault. It would be nice if you were here though.

Must work. Fucking goddammit. I don’t want to do this don’t want to do this don’t want to do this.

So, I changed my essay topic again and it’s do-able. I did half of the reading now and started to put the points down, but then my wrist started hurting and I got on IRC. But I feel better about it, it’ll be alright even if it is a day late.

My parents stopped by this evening and I actually talked to them. I can’t figure out why I don’t feel comfortable about telling them things – I think maybe it’s because I’m trying to be independent and they’re not letting go. Anyways, I went on about all of my assignments and crap that I have to do and let some stress out. They brought me food and cookies. Oh, and I told them about Sandy, a month and a half afterwards 😛

Stupid rainy day. I hate dreary weather. Cold weather is okay, as long as there is lots of snow to go along with it. But today was just stupid rainy and humid.

Whenever I have schoolwork to do I always try to resist doing it. I procrastinate, I make excuses, and always I end up doing things at the last minute, usually accompanied by much anxiety. Is this because I’m afraid of failure? Unmotivated to do work? Don’t see the point in it?

Probably all of those things.