Category: my ramblings

… a gigantic nuclear furnace.

Less than an hour until my first exam. Wish me luck.

I just remembered that I have a chocolate advent calendar. Now catching up on the past seven days, yum 🙂

Yes, I started studying.

ADF is awesome.

I finally posted the oft-requested group shot. It’s also on the friends photo page. (which needs helluva updating).

I am not studying today yet. Exam #1 is tomorrow at 7pm. I was studying yesterday afternoon. That is good. I also bought helluva LEGO yesterday (with the financial help of Sandy – yes yes, I will buy you stuffed animals), all of it Star Wars. I’ve been giving lots of Star Wars LEGO away as gifts but I realized I didn’t have any of my own.

Song: Asian Dub Foundation – Memory War

who controls the past controls the present
and who controls the present controls the future
soon come judgement day

I did no schoolwork today. I did a lot of putzing around. I’m good at that. I wrapped my Christmas presents so I can give them to my friends tomorrow. I did… uh… not much else. I did a lot of work on the Newton archives. Yeah.

My girlfriend said a little while ago that everyone at university is screwed up in some way. I would have to agree. University is a time of massive change for most people. Every year of my university career has been totally different from the others. There are only a few things or people that have carried through the whole time. Some of them are friends, others are bad habits that I’d rather get rid of.

Massive change tends to give us a lot of stress, and make us crazy. This is why most university students are crazy.

I often wonder who the regular visitors are to this page. I know that most of my friends read it at least semi-regularly, but when I look at the web logs there are accesses that I just can’t account for. Hey, I’ve got stalkers 🙂

I was thinking that it’s time for another life inventory:

• School: sucks, bites, blows, and swallows.
• School Gov’t: going great. Lots of friends up on high now 🙂
• Volunteer stuff: My Newton projects are going crazy. That’s a good kind of crazy. If I let it, this stuff could consume all of my time.
• Family: better. I feel like I am a little more comfortable with my parents. Maybe one of these days I’ll completely tear down the well between us.
• Friends: I think I have one of the greatest circles of friends ever. You guys rock.
• Computer: well, it’s still here, and not exploding (pets Asuka)
• Sandy: it’s strange, the past few times I’ve talked to my mother she keeps on asking me how much I’m in love with Sandy. I think she’s afraid or something. I’m not afraid. I have the most wonderful person in the whole world to be with. And no one else can have her 🙂

Because of the events of my last entry, I don’t have an exam until Friday. yay me.

“Weasel bag sex!!!!” — Everyone at the party last night

Well, I’m just about fucking done. I am going to fail CIS*3650. No joke. It’s all down the fucking tubes. I am doing fine in my remaining classes, but I could kick myself down a fucking staircase for being so negligent in this course. There’s no point in even writing the final exam. I threw the fucking course away, and of course the time and money.

If I don’t stay in school I seriously don’t know what I’d do. I’ll still be in school next semester. I might be under probationary status though. I’m wondering if I’ll have to go to an academic counsellor, a real counsellor, or something. I’ve never been to someone like that before. I might be half done my degree after this semester.

My life feels useless.

Today was apathy day. I sat in my room all day. I got some reading done for my theatre tech class. Talked to my mom on the phone. Organized my CDs a bit.

My mom asked me today how serious my relationship was. In her typical bizzare fashion, she asked me if we were going to be “shacking up” together. I thought about this for a while, and then told her that I wasn’t about to do anything so early in my life that would limit me in the future. That seemed to satisfy myself and my mom.

Oh, I also watched Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels this afternoon. I’ve had it sitting around for a while, finally watched the whole thing through and it was good.

I think I’m looking forward to watching a movie with Sandy tonight with some snacks (Halvah!!) and forgetting about life.

I’m still listening to Thievery Corporation.

I’m almost not worried about school anymore. I have three exams next week though. I need to start studying. Hard. Soon.

I’m worried about my friend Tony. It seems that he’s been getting jerked around by his girlfriend of almost five years. I know that he deserves better treatment than this. Last night he got “dumped” again for something like the fifth time in two weeks. Tony’s probably the nicest smartest person I know and I know that this has been really hard on him.

In other news, I got 85% on my theatre production assignment. Kick ass.

This afternoon I am going to go and clean the house-I-will-officially-move-into-next-semester. Housework doesn’t bother me. I’m actually looking forward to it (mainly because the house really needs it). I need to maintaing a certain level of tidyness and cleanliness. Not an extreme level, but some level.

You will listen to Thievery Corporation, or die. (Thanks, Jor.)

So, what is going through my brain lately?

I was walking down the main aisle of a local department store today and thought about the “progress” society has made in the past 100 years. The massive complexity of modern western life just turns my brain to mush sometimes, especially when I’m shopping. I walk down the aisle and see: toaster oven, vacuum, cosmetics, board games, videos, and think why. Although I question it, in a way I’m also awash in it: my computers have been the main component of my life for the majority of my life. I don’t understand or believe society sometimes, but still participate in it. Do I do so against my will?

Mmmmm, green tea.

This afternoon I went to the mall to do some christmas shopping. I got some people out of the way, but still have the two hardest left: my Dad and Sandy. Assuming you subscribe to this holiday gift-giving thing, it seems that the more important a person is to you, the harder it is to buy something for them. Either that or I just suck.

Yesterday was our (Sandy and I) two month anniversary. Proof that it has seemed much longer: I almost typed “four” instead of two. I love her very very much and I can’t wait to move in (I’m practically living there anyways)

Yep, that’s a good title. It’s all blah. School is blah. My dead Discman is blah. Well, Sandy is not blah, I guess 🙂

This entry is blah for sure. I want coffee.

I can’t find my Sleater-Kinney/Boa CD. Dammit.